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Post by Hannah Nicole Allenburg on Nov 14, 2009 21:21:09 GMT -5
Hannah just continued to sob non stop. She had lost the two closest things that have ever been in her life. In the blink of an eye she had gone from happy to sad. Like that. It was all gone, no way she was going to ever get it back. As the song finished blasting in her ears. Which happened with perfect timing, Jeremy whispered "I am sorry. You deserve better than me." She lifted her head up slightly and completely stopped the tears. There it was again. The sure thrill that she wasn't going to be alone forever. Like she thought that whole fight could be taken back and that it would all be forgotten, like letting go of a balloon. She lifted her head up completely but didn't say a word. Not a single one. She stood up finally and just stared at him. Looked at the emotionless eyes attached to his skull. She looked from eye to eye.
Her bottom lip started to tremble as she continued to think about the first time they talked. How he was the first person to make her smile and make her start to feel a little bit better. How he stayed with her and comforted her though the suicide and Tristan coming up and haunting her. And how they understood each other so well they could have the same brain. It was amazing and she had let it go. By just overreacting to one little thing, she had ruined everything. This was all her fault and she just knew that deep down inside her gut. It was almost like the voice inside her head was telling her to feel sorry for herself.
She just watched him hang his head and look at the ground. She put her hand under his chin and lifted up his head. "But how could I find someone better when the one that is perfect is standing right in front of me?" She felt agony and shame and a lot of depression. But she thought. Without Jeremy she most likely would have been so depressed she would have killed herself by now. And she felt so bad after she told him that life was valuable, then went and said that she would kill herself. She just didn't make any sense. And her brain didn't think she was either obviously.
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Post by jeremy dale gallo on Nov 14, 2009 21:31:28 GMT -5
He stood there as they both stared at each other. Looking at her his eyes grew wide as he sort of went off into several different memories he had. The first one he went back to when he first saw Hannah. She was walking in her eyes full of sadness yet she still had the urge to comfert Jeremy. Him. He wasn't even that depressed. He loved it when he made her smile, and he loved comfetering her when she was sobbing about Tristan. He understood her. He loved understanding her. He always did. When he remembered those memories his soft blue eyes slowly started to come alive. The live being sucked back in very slowly.
Looking at saw they were looking eye to eye now. It was...nice. They weren't yelling. They weren't yelling at all. Sighing again he looked at Hannah and than looked at the ground. He couldn't stand to look at her for too long. It would break him. He would just wrap his arms around her so he could just stand up straight. So he wouldn't collapse. Sighing to himself he kept staringa t the ground. Thinking of the fight that they just had. He almost starting stobbing again. He couldn't though. He just couldn't. Biting his lower lip to keep it from trembling he kept staring at the roof. The world felt like it was shaking when it was actually very still. He hated that it was shaking. He wished it would stop. Stop right now.
Feeling her hand under his chin sent chills up his spine. He was looking back at her again. Her eyes were really pretty. It sort of made him smile a little bit as he looked into her eyes. It made him feel at peace. He smiled a bit weakly when she said that he was perfect for her. That they were perfect for each other. Putting his arms around her waist he looked down at her and said "You make an amazing point Hannah. I want to apologize. Apologize for the pain I caused you in the past hour. I really am sorry. I shouldn't of yelled at you like that. I shouldn't of freaked. You had the right to freak. I mean, I was straight and I slept with a guy. A guy I meant a bar. So you had every right to freak out that your boyfriend was now bisexual." He smirked. His voice cracked in several places. Lifting her head up with his hand he kissed her lightly on the lips and pulled away and just smiled.
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Post by Hannah Nicole Allenburg on Nov 14, 2009 21:56:12 GMT -5
Hannah just continued to look at him. She continued to reply the memories, the tears, the hugs, and the kisses. She continued to fall even more in love with him then she already had before. It was almost like love a first sight for her. She felt him wrap his arms around her, it gave her goosebumps to know that a few minutes ago they were just screaming and hurting each other, and now so close she couldn't even remember what had happened for a while. She almost lost it when he kissed her. That was something she was wanting for a while, that was something that she couldn't live another day without. She didn't pull away, she didn't become angry, she wasn't even irritated about him kissing her right away out of a fight like that, she just kissed back and smiled in it. She smiled in the kiss. Again. Smiled. She couldn't even believe it and she was just surprised at herself for doing that.
What even made her more surprised then she even was, she kissed him more, she didn't let him pull away. She just wrapped her arms around his neck and kissed him. This was for all the fighting. The yelling, the screaming, and most of all the large slap that made a mark on his face.She finally pulled away and smiled up at him. Not a huge smile but a small one. Enough to show that she was too incredibly sorry. "No Jeremy, I'm the one who should be apologizing. I'm the one who slapped you and completely overreacted. So I'm so sorry. Could you forgive me? I hope so because I cannot live without you. and that is a fact." She laid her head against his chest in a slight hug and just stayed there.
Hannah just laid there on his chest feeling his body warmth and smiled. She became suddenly happened. With a snap of her fingers she would be back to normal, but too bad this was reality and it would take her longer then she would expect. But for now she hugged him tight around his waist. All of a sudden her Mp3 came on it was "here without you" by 3 doors down. She lifted her head up and put on of the ear buds in his ear for him to listen. This was one of her favorite songs and she had nothing else to say to Jeremy right now anyway.
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Post by jeremy dale gallo on Nov 21, 2009 9:44:44 GMT -5
When Hannah kissed him back with just as much feeling as he had it selt small shivers up his spine each time. Putting his hands on her hips he felt his insides start to boil up. Shit. His teenage boy instincts were kicking in. He had to stomp his foot once to fight back the urge to just.....well...pull down her pants. He pulled away and put his chin on top of her head and breathed heavily before kissing her again. Closing his eyes he sighed again as he kept on kissing her. Thoughts snapped into his head. Thoughts that weren't his normal thoughts. Not at all. Tapping his foot his thoughts started to scream what his natural instincts wanted to do. He ignored them.
When she wrapped her arms around his neck it felt like she sent lightning bolts up threw him. It was an amazing feeling. Wrapping his arms around her waist and clinging his hands together he just smiled and when she pulled away and apologized for slapping him his eye twitched slightly. The slap stung now. He hated that. He forgot about it until she said something. Hanging his head low for a second he sighed and than smiled at her and said "There is no use for arguing if I should say sorry or you so I am sorry also for what I said and stuff like that..." He smiled and lifted her head up and kissed her lightly and said "Now...don't you argue with me." He smiled at her and put his hand over her head as she rested against it.
When she hugged him tight around his waist he picked her up and held her as he got down on his knees and than laid down on the ground. Holding her the whole time. It took a bit, but it worked. When they were laying on top of the roof and just..hugging he heard the song 'Here without you' by 3 doors down. He waiting until the song was done. Holding up his finger he brought his earbud to her ear and it played 'The sadness with never end by Bring me the Horizon.' Pulling away from the hug he stood up and started to sing to her. Trying to match with Oliver Sykes sound completly like him.
I won't give up on you These scars won't tear us apart So don't give up on me It's not too late for us And I'll save you from yourself And I'll save you from yourself
Smiling at her he shrugged and sat next to her. His thought aching a little bit. God, he hadn't done that in forever...
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Post by Hannah Nicole Allenburg on Nov 21, 2009 10:07:59 GMT -5
Hannnah just let him kiss her and touch her? Well obviously he wanted something but Hannah just didn't even seem to notice. She was so caught up in this feeling that swept through her every time he breathed in and out. She closed her eyes and smiled. She breathed in deep and almost started laughing histerically when he touched her waist. She was pretty ticklish right there on her sides. Luckily she would never tell him that she was. That would just cause some serious tickling to happen. Hannah just smiled back at him when he told her not to argue with him. She just shook her head and laughed. "No matter how much we try I garuntee we will get in another fight. As long as I don't slap you then we shall continue to make this work." Hannah giggled and stood on her tipytoes to kiss him on the forhead. He was so much taller then she was. She was only about 5'4" not even. She was more like 5'3" She was so short and she was always called that at school and around her house. She was the smallest throughout her whole family much less the world. She felt him pick her up and then lay down on the roof. She smiled with her head still on his chest. He was such a good guy in her eyes. She had never seen so much sensitivity and love in any other guy. And she realized that she was so wrong when she told him to be like other guys. Stuck up, jerkoff pigs. And that wasn't what she was going to bring up again.
She watched him get up and then start singing. She smiled and bit her lip, she loved it when he sang. It was something that could calm her down in an instant. She stood up and crossed her arms along with a small smile. "You know as much as I enjoy being on the roof, do you think we could go to solid ground maybe? She smiled at him and twirled her hair. She felt like a little school girl with a big crush, except that the crush was already hers. This made her smile even more. She sat back down with her knees pulled up as she watched the sunset start to show behind the clouds, and the beautiful colors hitting the lake like a a baseball hitting the baseball bat. She started to hum what Jeremy was singing softly. She was so happy that everything worked that she started crying. Her eyes filled with tears out of happiness and joy. That was all she wanted. Not sitting on a roof thinking about how she could get jeremy back. She was sitting on the roof with Jeremy smiling, laughing, kissing, and hugging. That was all she needed.
Hannah wiped the tear from her face. She hoped that Jeremy wouldn't ask. Because well...it would be hard to explain. And as she watched the sky and the animals making all hannah's thoughts come true. She smiled a bit more and then wished she had brought her guitar today. But oh well. She would next time. She owed Jeremy a song. Because if he loved her enough to sing to her in screamo then she had to repay him. And plus she loved him enough to remember that he deserves a good song and a person like hannah. But she wasn't really too sure how much he loved her exactly and maybe she would never know. As long as they stayed together that was all that mattered. She laid down on the roof and looked up at the sky. She smiled and closed her eyes. She started to take in everything around her.
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Post by jeremy dale gallo on Nov 21, 2009 10:26:10 GMT -5
Jeremy just nodded as she talked. Laying down as they stared up at the sky he turned off his i-pod and sighed. Sniffling to himself he stared up as he felt this feeling that he hadn't felt in awhile with a girl. Happiness. Sighing to himself he went on his side and stared at her. A smile spread across his face. Sighing to himself he put his hand on her cheek and started to stroke it with his thumb and said "You are just..awesome." Laughing his italtian and british accent mixing together to add an odd combination.
Putting his other hand on her face he cupped his face in hers and started to kiss her. Putting his forehead against hers he smiled to himself and pulled away for a moment. Licking his lips. Her taste strong against his damp lips. Pulling her closer he kissed her again and started to run his hands down from her shoulders to her waist. His own spine tingling as he did so. He didn't want this moment to ever end. Than his phone went off. It played 'Never to Late by Three Days Grace.' Phone call. Groaning he pulled away and sighed. Standing up he answered and snapped "WHAT!" His mother started screaming on the other line.
Pulling the phone away from his ear for a moment he groaned and nodded saying "Alright...Alright..ALRIGHT. I will be there in fifteen minutes. Just don't scare my sister alright...please?" Sighing to himself he licked his lips as he hung up the phone. Turning toward Hannah he sighed and walked back over to her. Slipping her grabbed the tile and cursed loudly than stood up slowly and noticed all the scrapes on his arms. Groaning he said "I just can't win..." Laughing Jeremy walked over to her and kissed her with passion very quickly and pulled away and said "I have to go. My mother needs me to babysit. God." Laughing he kissed her again and ran over to the side of the house and slid down the gutter. Running toward in front of the house he waved at her and blew her a kiss and laughed as he ran off into the distance. Smiling the whole time.
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